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[In a strange way, the way Hubert speaks to him is comforting.

Oh, it'd never be a comfort to anyone else; all they would see is an intimidating shadow of a man, who wouldn't have empathy for their issues at all, who they wouldn't even give the time of day to, much less even try to understand the point of view of. Linhardt can't say that he understands Hubert perfectly, or as much as Edelgard likely does, but he tries. He wants to try, because Hubert is his friend, he's someone who inspires a lot of odd feelings and makes him worry every now and again, he's someone who kills all too easily, but--]

Those people don't know anything about you, and quite frankly, they should mind their own business.

[It's the sole interjection Linhardt offers while Hubert talks, shortly after he mentions that people would find it repulsive and horrifying that he's killed others before. He doesn't look at Hubert's face, and really, Lin's...not really looking at anything, right now. Sure, he looks like he's looking pretty intently into that book of his, but...his expression is still in that weirdly unreadable state. It's odd, really, because his expression doesn't really change even if he definitely gives an indication that he's listening.

Linhardt's listening attentively to everything Hubert is saying, because even if the man is terrible at this, there is something Linhardt has learned.

He's so remarkably honest when he doesn't have to lie to get ahead. Linhardt trusts him, and all that he says; he knows that Hubert would have wanted him to be as far away from this path that he and Edelgard are carving for themselves. He knows that Hubert would want something different for him, if he were the ultimate deciding factor in this, and that alone is comforting. It's more consideration than most have ever given him in his life. Everything that Hubert has done for him has been something that nobody else has really tried, to understand him, going out of his way to apologize with his favorite things, comforting him with the knowledge that he's doing enough, that things would be different, that he cares, at least somewhat--

...When did his vision start to blur? It's practically swimming in front of him, but he doesn't feel lightheaded, or anything like that. So why...?]

...I do believe I understand, now, what you mean.

[Linhardt's tone is calm. Remarkably calm, for how fearful he had gotten towards the end.]

I think I truly needed it put into perspective, that being reckless wasn't going to solve any problems; all it would do is create them, and cost the both of you precious time that you need to realize your plans. And that I'm doing enough, to assist you both, with what I am already trying to accomplish.

[Oh, blinking solves the problem of that blurred vision very easily. He should have done that sooner. It's strange, though--is he sweating again? He feels something roll down his cheek...]

...And I appreciate your honesty, as well; I know you wouldn't give up on that path of yours for anything in the world, and I would never ask you to do such a thing. But to know what you would have done in an ideal situation...it's comforting to me; it goes a long way toward helping me feel at ease. [...] You are always so incredibly honest, when you don't have any orders not to be. Did you know that? I always liked that about you.

[He still does. That goes without saying.]

Ah, but I'm blathering. What I mean to say is...I hear you, loud and clear. I am thankful for your understanding. I will do everything I can to properly pace myself, so I don't cost either of you vital information--and so that I may be able to assist you both properly, when the time comes.

[Ah, the sweat is coming down again...he'd need to clean off his face at some point. He can't be bothered to do it right now. He'll just have to deal with it.]

...Thank you, Hubert. I am very glad to call you my friend, and I won't allow this to happen to myself again.

[...He doesn't even realize he's been crying this entire time. Linhardt hasn't cried since he was a child, and he's never really cried like a normal person once his childhood was over; his face would always be that unreadable expression, as it has been for quite some time, and the tears would just...roll, despite himself. There's no hitches of breath, no shuddering, stuttering tone, nor any real indication that he was breaking down. The only way one would know is if they looked directly at his face, and noticed.

It's been a long time since this has happened, and he doesn't really even realize it. Perhaps he should be humiliated; Linhardt doesn't really seem to care either way. It's...strange, even after he's said his piece, and he's not sure he's said enough at this point, but he knows he hears Hubert. He knows that he's trying.

And that's more than most have ever been willing to do for him, and he's grateful.]

Edited 2019-08-13 05:56 (UTC)

[Hubert's eyes remain on the books, and he's very tempted to reach out to flip one open, just to give himself something to do with his hands. It's a terrible habit of his, one he has done his best to train himself out of over the years. Fidgeting does quite a lot to dispel the intimidating front he puts on, after all. Even though it wouldn't matter here - he has no reason to intimidate Linhardt and he doesn't want to - he still finds himself refusing to give in to the temptation.

It isn't that he's not focused on Linhardt, but his attention is elsewhere and he misses when the crying starts. All he knows is one minute everything is fine (awkward, but fine) and the next tears are rolling down Linhardt's face and he's entirely unsure of what caused it.

Hubert understands crying a lot better than most people would think, though he can't recall the last time he cried.

No, it was Lady Edelgard that was often brought to tears. When they were little, she used to cry so easily. Over the years she trained herself out of it, but back then... Well, to be honest, he never really learned what to do when Lady Edelgard had cried in front of him. Even as a child he was terrible at this, and sometimes when she got so worked up and upset, she'd sit next to him and sob into his shoulder. Eventually he had learned it was okay to touch her - to pat her back or if she was feeling particularly needy, to wrap his arms around her.

They had been children, but even now he remembers it all too clearly.

It isn't appropriate to do the same for Linhardt. It wouldn't have been appropriate if this was Lady Edelgard bursting into tears, so of course it isn't something he should do. But the urge is there, stronger than it ever was when Lady Edelgard cried.

He knows he's staring - his expression a bit too open and honest and confused - but he can't find the words he needs or wants right now. Comfort has never come easily to him, and he doesn't understand why Linhardt's crying in the first place.]

...Linhardt.

[It isn't harsh, it isn't demanding. It's not comforting or gentle either, but nothing about Hubert is or ever will be.]

I didn't mean to upset you. I...

[The words dry up in his throat. They always do when it comes to apologies. His gaze darts and he shifts, fingers absently going to the hem of his glove before he stops himself and reconsiders.

He pulls a handkerchief from his pocket instead, offering it to Linhardt without another word.]

...Huh?

[Linhardt sounds genuinely confused, honestly kind of surprised when Hubert actually speaks up, finally turning to actually look at him and finding himself utterly confused by the assertion--had Hubert upset him? No, he's pretty sure that he was...honestly kind of relieved by what Hubert said, so why is he offering him a handkerchief...???

He'll. He'll take it, though he looks very confused. Despite, you know, the tears still kind of coming down, but. Nobody ever said Linhardt was emotionally competent.

(Congratulations, Hubert, you're actually more competent than Linhardt in this regard.)]

Thank you...? I don't believe you upset me, but I was feeling a little sweaty...it might just be the fever acting up again.

[Yes, that's it. It's not any sort of emotions going on. It's just the fever, he's sure, as he wipes his face off some.

...I'm so sorry.]

[...]

Linhardt, you're crying.

[He didn't exactly plan on saying it, but there it is anyway, with all the subtlety and grace of a iron axe to the face.]

Are you truly not aware...?

[He's not sure if Linhardt was trying to pretend he wasn't crying or if he's just. that. emotionally dumb.

...But since he asked, he's pretty sure Linhardt's that emotionally dumb.]

[... ... ...

Linhardt just kind of touches his face a few times, as if he's trying to actually find out whether he's crying or not. It's kind of awkward, really, and Linhardt is the most openly confused he's ever been in his life.

...With tears still coming down, how is this happening--]

...I thought I was sweating due to the fever acting up again...?

[Congratulations, Hubert. Linhardt is exactly that emotionally dumb.]

Well. I can't say I ever expected this to happen.

[LIN CAN YOU NOT SOUND SO GOD DAMN CALM WHILE DOING THIS???]

[...And here he thought he was the most emotionally stupid person in the Black Eagles house...]

Have you never cried before?

[It's probably rude to ask, but he's really interested, okay.]

Oh, no, I cried when I was a child. [Beat. He actually has to think about this.] ...Well, no, actually, I'm quite sure I stopped when I was fairly young...? I must have been about...four or five...

[...]

Hm. Caspar did use to give me strange looks whenever I fell, from time to time, or got otherwise hurt.

[...h m]

This is a curious case...

[LIN]

...And here I thought I was the strange one between us.

[it's true but he really shouldn't say it???]

Don't let it concern you too much. Under difficult circumstances most people are prone to crying. It seems this was weighing on you heavier than I had anticipated.

[It's not an apology, but he at least has the decency to look slightly sorry about it.]

You don't feel sad, though...?

No, I'd say we're about even. I suppose, at least.

[ah, there's the lack of tact again

Still, Linhardt does listen, and...that honestly does sound very fair. It must have been eating at him far more than he realized; honestly, when he realized he had so much to say, that's...probably when he should have realized that this was stressing him out a lot more than he anticipated.

Hubert's question gets a firm shake of the head, however.]

No, not at all. That's why I was so confused. [...He actually takes a second to think about it, bless him, he's trying.] I truly feel relieved by what you told me.

[...And kind of touched??? Like he's made it clear nobody goes this far out of their way for him, and Hubert's gone exceedingly far, many times. Lin really appreciates it?]

Oh, I see. Sometimes people do cry when they're happy.

[He says, sounding like this is the weirdest fucking thing...]

Relief could do it too, I suppose. I'm glad to hear it wasn't anything upsetting, at least.

[That gets him to relax a little.]

...All be told, I don't know if there would actually be a difference between something upsetting or something relieving. In regards to my ability to cry, anyway.

[...Lin that's probably not comforting...]

But oh, no, it wasn't anything like that at all. [Beat.] You know, you say that you don't understand my concerns, and yet you always seem able to show an incredibly amount of understanding towards them. I think that's incredibly kind of you--and that you should give yourself more credit.

[LIN OH MY GOD YOU'RE GONNA KILL THE MAN...]

[HE IS A TERRIBLE PERSON, HE DOESN'T DESERVE THIS]

I wouldn't go so far as to call any of that kind...

[He says, like this is the weirdest damn thing he's ever heard. Seriously, who would have ever thought of calling him kind??]

I'm only doing what I think is best, that's all.

["kind"...............]

[UNFORTUNATELY, LIN DOES THINK HE DESERVES THIS

ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY]

Well, then I think that says something about "what you think is best", doesn't it? [He seems convinced, at any rate] It takes someone with a wonderfully kind heart to go out of their way, time and time again, to care for someone, ensure that they're taking care of themselves, and help them should they falter.

I think that takes someone incredibly kind-hearted, deep down, to be able to do that.

[...He winds up picking up the bear and hugging it a bit, with a pretty soft smile on his face.]

[ohhhhhhhh my god

He shifts a bit, folding one arm beneath the over and pressing a hand over the lower half of his face as he glances away, as if that will somehow hide just how flushed he is. It's a tight, closed-off posture that speaks volumes to just how much this has flustered him.]

Don't be ridiculous. It isn't as though I'm this "kind" with everyone. You just happen to be on the receiving end of it more often.

[His voice does a pretty good job of not reflecting how much he wants to die and be dead right now. His posture's giving away entirely too much though, and he's fully aware of it.]

[...Oh no??? Oh no, this is actually kind of...precious...]

Well, of course you aren't. It's not like everyone is deserving of it in your eyes, right?

[He starts to lean over the bed a bit, trying to get a closer look at Hubert, just keeping that smile on his face.]

That just means that it means quite a lot to me when you are that kind. You don't need to be so embarrassed about it.

[Come on, man, don't tell him you have an allergy for this kind of stuff!!]

[This is so embarrassing... He doesn't do well with this sort of thing...]

I'm not embarrassed.

[He says, while very obviously being embarrassed.]

Do you need something to eat? I can go get you something.

[please let him escape...]

Truly? Then your reaction really is most fascinating to beho--

[...The sad part is that Linhardt is entirely serious when he says that much, looking more curious than anything, but Hubert does bring up a good point. One that Linhardt is about to deny until there's a bit of an audible growl from his stomach.]

...Ah, I suppose I am. Hurry back though, won't you? And get yourself something too; I imagine you must be hungry as well.

[He's hoping Hubert's still redfaced by the time he gets back so he can ask him more questions about it!!

(If he doesn't get engrossed in his books, which seems likely.)]

[Oh thank the goddess. Hubert's quick to stand up and nod, not even giving any sort of other response before leaving.

...Obviously he takes some time to calm down before actually venturing out in public, because he'd rather die than let anyone else see him this flustered.

It doesn't take long to obtain food and return; he'll place the tray in front of Linhardt and pick his own plate off of it before returning to the desk. There aren't any more chocolates this time, but there is a pastry that's probably filled with jelly or something else sweet.]

I hope you aren't too engrossed in your research.

[It's light, and everything seems back to normal like that conversation earlier didn't happen. It's fine. Don't call him "kind" ever again.]

[Linhardt's pretty well into his reading by the time Hubert comes back, at any rate. Because Linhardt lives and breathes books, practically, it's probably no surprise that he's got his nose buried by the time Hubert's at the door. He will put the book down, though, to make room for the tray--just in time for his eyes to catch that little pastry.]

Oh--thank you. This is quite delightful. More than worth putting my research aside, for a moment or two.

[This time he'll actually be a good boy and eat his food first, don't worry Hubie. He only looks a little put out that Hubert isn't flushed anymore; it was honestly kind of adorable...

...Still, he does take the opportunity to be a little sneaky and get a glimpse of what Hubert's got while he eats--what did he get? Maybe he can try to remember it for another time...]

[He looks pleased with that, turning to his food. He's picked up something relatively simple - enough to be filling, but nothing particularly fancy. The dining hall was serving fish today, so that's what he's got. Linhardt obviously has the food he likes - as if Hubert wouldn't know that by now?]

I hope you enjoy it. With any luck, you'll be feeling well enough to make your way to the dining hall soon enough.

[Hmm. He didn't know Hubert had such simple tastes...or it was just fish day in the dining hall. He'll just have to be more vigilant, since Hubert's always doing the same thing!!]

That is certainly my hope, at any rate. I'm certain that I'll be better quite soon, with the way you've been watching out for me.

[He'll eat a bit, letting the silence hang in the room a bit before just kind of going for it.]

What sort of foods do you like? You seem to have memorized mine quite effectively.

[...Lin is pretty obvious with his choices, though, so to be fair, it's not hard...]

You probably would recover faster with Manuela's help.

[He sounds vaguely amused, though.

At the question, he considers for a moment before answering.]

There are some foods I like more than others, but it isn't something that I put much focus on. I suppose if I had to pick... I'm fond of steak. I've never liked anything too sweet.

[Which is definitely why he'll give you the sweets.]

[The plan was eventually sprung; the Holy Tomb where all of those crest stones would be, after all, and it was a simple matter at the end of it all. Even if Edelgard was revealed, even if Hubert and Linhardt had to reveal themselves there, right in front of the church and everyone (which Linhardt was more than nervous about, to say the least, knowing he recognized some of the student body in the crowd)--but once Hubert and Linhardt's magic allowed them an easy escape, everything went according to the Empire's plans. Edelgard was crowned Emperor, Garreg Mach fell, and though the battle was, to put it bluntly, basically a massacre, the Empire had prevailed. Sure, they had to go back to the castle at the end of it all, but they had essentially won. The church was in shambles, and Fodlan as they knew it was coming apart at the seams.

All be told, it scared Linhardt. He did everything he could not to let it show; he had spent much of that time after he was sick refining his magic, utilizing as much of his time at the monastery as possible to ensure he would be an asset to the empire, and he pulled it off well; somehow, he knew that both Edelgard and Hubert were pleased as he managed to help assure them victory, alongside many of the Empire's seasoned soldiers. Even after the revelation of what Rhea truly was, he kept going, motivated by the desire to see the world that those two envisioned. It certainly helped that he stayed close by Hubert as time went on, as well; some might have considered it weird, but neither of them cared. If Hubert was Edelgard's right hand, Linhardt was simply shaping up to be Hubert's, and it allowed them time to spend together, to help cope with the war they had brought forth.

Of course, it wouldn't be easy; there was much still to be done. Linhardt had to go back to his own estate for a while, working to ensure his family's cooperation with the empire for what seemed like forever; he finally did secure it after some convincing, and he was able to pass it onto Empress Edelgard, that House Hevring would offer it's full support. It at least ensured that he'd never have to face his family down in battle, which...offered Linhardt a lot more relief than he had thought, really. Sometimes, you had to take the small comforts in this war.

But of course, he still had plenty of orders to follow, however; that's why he had been summoned today. Edelgard needed him to be stationed at Fort Merceus, a territory very close to the empire, the capital of Bergliez county; some part of Linhardt worried about what could happen there, not knowing of Caspar's whereabouts or allegiances for quite some time now, but he pushed it from his mind. The empress needed him to work, and work he would. Especially with the promise that Hubert would be there; he hadn't seen the man in about a month, after all, and he was hoping he'd see Hubert again soon.

He arrives in the territory well within the evening, and he makes to find Hubert as quickly as possible. The guards direct him to where Hubert is currently located, and once they leave, Linhardt finds himself openly relieved.]

It's been quite some time, hasn't it, Hubert?

[Lady Edelgard's plan had gone off without a hitch.

No, Her Majesty.

She is the Empress of Adrestia now, and while they have accomplished much, their battle is only just beginning. Hubert hadn't wanted them to separate, but their duties called all three of them apart, to handle different matters within the new Empire.

Hubert had killed his own father and taken his position, then moved out to cut a bloody path through those that resisted Her Majesty's rule. It ended at Fort Merceus, where he was stationed now. With any lucky, he would be able to push through and continue their fight onwards, but for now they had the task of ensuring the fort would be secure from attack.

Linhardt - the much kinder man he was - had opted to win House Hevring over to Her Majesty's Empire. He had been successful - Lady Edelgard had told him herself when they'd met a week back. She was still busy dealing with the internal politics and her uncle - things that couldn't be solved with murder, regrettably.

Even though it had been a month since he last saw Linhardt, it feels like it's been so much longer. Keeping in touch hasn't been feasible, not when messages could be intercepted and possibly used against them. A month isn't all that long in the grand scheme of things, but still... He's really looking forward to seeing Linhardt, even though he would prefer it if Linhardt wasn't in such a dangerous area. There's no telling if there will be a battle, but it's far more likely at this point that they'll have to face off against someone. Be it rebellions or armies, they will be put down in Her Majesty's name.

Linhardt's arrived, and he'll find Hubert in the war room. It's a room with more maps and notes than most people would know what to do with, but Linhardt's probably expecting exactly that given everything Hubert is.

His expression is perhaps surprisingly calm when he sees Linhardt, and he sets the map he was staring at aside.]

It has been. You've been well, I hope?

[There's something almost wonderful about seeing Hubert in this sort of state--it feels like things are as they should be, in a way. Hubert's in his element, with enough notes and maps to kill a man, and all feels well. Hubert's doing everything he can to assist in Edelgard--no, Her Majesty's rule, and see that path forward to it's conclusion.

That hex hasn't acted up in quite some time, though Linhardt wonders if that was what the vaguely empty feeling was in his chest, but now that he's here? It's fluttering again, though there's a warm feeling there as well. He feels...home.]

Quite well, as a matter of fact. I am certain that you've heard that House Hevring is in full support of Her Majesty's empire by now? That was a highly stressful time, I do admit...but all is well, as of now; everything seems to be moving according to plan.

[He smiles when he says that, moving to take a place near Hubert, if the man will let him.]

What of yourself? Has everything been going well, on your end?

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