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𝑮𝑹𝑰𝑺𝑺 ([personal profile] painfell) wrote in [community profile] sranks2023-02-15 11:38 pm

alear deserves better

( do we need a catchall?? too bad. catchall for alear and griss. )
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-13 03:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Sometimes, even Griss deserves the Divine One's mercy. Which is certainly what Griss isn't showing her tonight. There's a twitch of a smile in Alear's expression, though; not even she's entirely sure why, but by the time she gives the signal, she's satisfied. There's a good catharsis to it, and the burns on her arm and a somewhat nasty one on her leg are perfectly fine, as far as she's concerned.

It takes a moment, but Alear will join Griss once she's gotten her bearings. The remark gets something of a huff out of Alear at first, but...]


...Well, you're definitely not wrong.

[She's supposed to be this indomitable force of good, but man, after today, she feels just like she did when she first woke up. When Lumera first died, the wounds ripped open all anew--]

Sorry for not giving you a satisfying battle. But yes, today has been...wearing on my mind, a lot more than I thought. It's kind of eye opening, but...the kind where it was something you could've gone the rest of your life not knowing?

[...]

I guess to put it simply, it was...a lot.
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-14 11:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[Without thinking, Alear presents her injuries to Griss without much further comment at first. Her expression is contemplative, quiet, and...almost a little empty, though she keeps her gaze toward the ground while she talks.]

...A bit of both. Hearing just how my other self had been so broken down by living under Sombron's thumb, how they described their siblings dying, and just seeing how she used to live fills me with chills. It was horrifying, awful, and I meant what I said. That I hope she wakes up and finds some kind of happiness.

[A small pause. Alear's gaze comes up from the ground, watching Griss work.]

...I remembered...meeting Queen Lumera. I think, for the first time.
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-20 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
[...]

Mother was...warm. Kind, and caring. I could see it in her eyes; I couldn't tell why she looked at me, at the time, with that warmth and kindness and extended hand, but it was welcoming. Like a bright light I was so desperate to reach out to, that I could scarcely believe was reaching for me.

...But I guess to put it simply, she made me feel alive, for the first time in my life. She made me feel something other than empty and driven to not die, and...I don't know. I've gotten so used to the way everyone else has treated me, that being reminded of that...I don't know. I kind of feel like I lost her all over again.

[Alear goes quiet for a little bit. Just kind of staring and watching Griss work for a while; magic's beyond her, even if she's resistance blessed as hell. But something nags at her mind, really, the more she thinks about it. But she just lets that set, for a moment.]
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-20 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Alear's mind drifts while she listens to Griss speak, while he looks at her arm. It replays her Mother's death again; how hopeless she felt. The knowledge that all these years had passed, and Lumera gave her every bit of strength she had within her to survive. To become the savior they needed.

She wondered what would happen if Queen Lumera could see her now, with her killers among their allies. Alear isn't sure what she'd think. Maybe it's insulting. She doesn't know. But maybe, just maybe she'd understand, at least Zephia's point of view--]


Yeah. It feels like having your heart ripped from your chest, but the pain doesn't just...go away with time. It's not even pleasant. It just feels empty.

[This is so difficult for Griss. Alear can tell. She's never felt any sympathy for this man, and yet something tugs at her. And yet...]

...Hey, can I ask you something? It's...a little personal, so I understand if you might not want to answer it.

[She'll wait for his answer before speaking again, but--]

What was it like, meeting Zephia, for you? How did you meet?
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-26 05:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[Alear listens.

She's always been good at that. Many people in the army come to her with their troubles, and Alear's gotten used to listening to people. Their worries, their hopes and dreams, all of them. To listen to Griss at least talk about someone he seems to think the world of...Alear smiles very slightly as she imagines it. Zephia really did bring Griss hope. Purpose, in a way. Alear always had a feeling that Zephia meant the world and more to Griss, but to hear it outright...

It's something new, and even if Griss annoys her to the ends of the earth, it's something that Alear is glad that Griss has for himself. He wants to make Zephia happy. Meeting her did save him, in a way, perhaps, almost like...

When the question is turned back to Alear, she blinks a bit, clearly having gotten distracted. Her gaze goes elsewhere, maybe almost embarrassed about having to answer for herself, but...]


I was just curious. [...] But...it always seemed like Zephia gave you a sense of purpose, and your life was better with her in it.

...I guess I was just wondering if meeting her was...like meeting Mother, for me. That's all.
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-27 12:18 am (UTC)(link)
[Alear wasn't sure what she was expecting. Getting chewed out for her assumption of their relationship, maybe. A vague sense of understanding; both of those would have been in the realm of possibility, and at first, Alear seems content that he seems to actually understand what she was getting at, and maybe she did have the right of it.

but for what little it's worth, I am sorry about your mom.

Alear isn't sure what her face is doing, or her body--everything in her goes...tense, for a brief moment, before it releases and. Oh.

Not even Alear realized that she really needed to hear that. Even from him.]


...It's worth more than you think. [Alear looks away for a moment, don't you dare comment about the misty eyes buddy--] It means a lot to hear that, even if there's nothing that can be done to bring her back. And I wouldn't have expected it. It's...kind of you. I feel like I understand you a bit better, now, too.

[...]

Thank you, Griss. There's really nothing to be done now but to try and move forward, but...it's appreciated. You didn't have to.

[don't cry don't cry don't you dare cry alear--

She starts to move to get up after that, though, offering a hand for Griss if he needs it. Tonight's definitely been an eye opening experience, to say the least.]
Edited (...mmm, wording? more i look at this the more i headtilt but fuck it) 2023-03-27 00:24 (UTC)
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[personal profile] lyration 2023-03-27 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Huh. When he looks like that, he almost looks a little...

...No, she's killing those thoughts where they stand. It's just nice to finally have an understanding with someone who doesn't see her as divine.]


You know what? Next time, I promise I'll beat you into the dirt and beyond, to repay you for this. You have my word.

[The words may be the same, but she's more than happy to match it. It's the least she can do, at least.

But for tonight...well, maybe she can get back to sleep a little more energized for the days ahead. And she's more than happy about that.]