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to a new year
[It never gets easier for the Order of Heroes. Ever since the day that they repelled an invasion from Embla, their lives all changed. For Alfonse in particular, it's involved discovering a great many things about the world at large--whether it be what truly ailed the Embla royal siblings, Muspell's attempt at conquest, or Hel's attempt at taking over the entire world, all Alfonse saw at the end of the day were evil people who needed to be stopped, no matter what. And he was more than willing to put his life on the line, in order to see that justice through.
But it also meant being able to heal from old scars. Zacharias's betrayal, for one, and learning how to open himself up even slightly to other heroes for another. Sure, Alfonse still preferred more cold and detached individuals rather than anyone who would try to befriend him, but even the prince needed someone to call a friend.
He simply wasn't exactly expecting to find such stalwart friendship with the likes of Hubert von Vestra of all people.
Ever since he had been summoned, Alfonse took something of an interest in the man. Hubert kept his distance from anyone and everyone who couldn't offer him anything useful, but even so, Alfonse sought him out. Simply to chat, to start, but their chats soon became rather commonplace. Alfonse learned much about the history of Fódlan from Hubert, and several of the man's opinions on said history. If Alfonse could be honest, he could see why Hubert disdained the history so much; between the corrupted nobility and what had happened to Princess Edelgard, it was no wonder Hubert held such a deep bitterness.
In return, Alfonse confided into Hubert about...much, really. Be it daily happenings with Sharena, tactical exchanges and the like, and anything and everything in between, he'd grown much closer to Hubert as a result. Hubert had called him out on such a thing once; that for as much as Alfonse talked of keeping a distance to others, he sure sought Hubert out often. And that was true, but it was because of Hubert's logical reasoning and lack of emotional attachment. In a way, Alfonse felt...safe, around him. There was less worry about growing emotionally attached and having to worry about Hubert leaving one day. Which of course Alfonse knew was inevitable; he was the servant of Princess Edelgard, of course he'd leave. Still, it made it easy for Alfonse to talk to him, and to befriend him.
But as time wore on, that excuse held less and less water. Alfonse and Hubert were both quite busy, but Alfonse sought Hubert out more often than he would most other heroes. It was so easy to talk to him, to confide, and even to fight alongside the man. There was no doubt in his mind that of all of the Heroes within the order, Hubert was clearly the closest to the Askran Prince. It wasn't as if it meant anything. They were simply friends, and just that. It didn't matter that Alfonse was so comfortable around him, and that he found himself thinking about Hubert more and more often as time wore on. That was just friendship, right? And nothing untoward. Absolutely nothing untoward.
At any rate, it would be a normal day like any other--but of course it isn't. The new year is coming in, and of course, the Order of Heroes is celebrating. Anna has already set up the celebration and Sharena has managed to convince him, and several other heroes to partake in the festivities, so naturally, Alfonse has been taking part. Sharena has stayed close to him today, and they've been having a lot of fun. But even so, someone hasn't arrived, and it's...causing something strange in Alfonse. He's tried to keep it from being obvious, but Sharena did pull him aside to ask what was on his mind...
And he almost feels like he's made a big mistake in telling her that he wished Hubert was here. Her grin is all too bright as she gives him what's essentially a pep-talk, and before he knows it, he's back in the castle and going right for the library.
("Oh, just go and ask him! The worst he can say is no, right?" Sharena winked shortly after saying that much. "But I imagine he won't say no if it's you asking!")
It doesn't matter what Hubert's answer is. Alfonse couldn't possibly impose such frivolity on his friend if he didn't want it. And yet, as he enters the library...well, he's about to do just that. He'll walk in, yukata-clad and all, and go find his friend--]
Ah, Hubert. [There he is. Alfonse keeps his voice calm, though there is a small smile on his face as he comes across the man.] Am I disturbing you?
But it also meant being able to heal from old scars. Zacharias's betrayal, for one, and learning how to open himself up even slightly to other heroes for another. Sure, Alfonse still preferred more cold and detached individuals rather than anyone who would try to befriend him, but even the prince needed someone to call a friend.
He simply wasn't exactly expecting to find such stalwart friendship with the likes of Hubert von Vestra of all people.
Ever since he had been summoned, Alfonse took something of an interest in the man. Hubert kept his distance from anyone and everyone who couldn't offer him anything useful, but even so, Alfonse sought him out. Simply to chat, to start, but their chats soon became rather commonplace. Alfonse learned much about the history of Fódlan from Hubert, and several of the man's opinions on said history. If Alfonse could be honest, he could see why Hubert disdained the history so much; between the corrupted nobility and what had happened to Princess Edelgard, it was no wonder Hubert held such a deep bitterness.
In return, Alfonse confided into Hubert about...much, really. Be it daily happenings with Sharena, tactical exchanges and the like, and anything and everything in between, he'd grown much closer to Hubert as a result. Hubert had called him out on such a thing once; that for as much as Alfonse talked of keeping a distance to others, he sure sought Hubert out often. And that was true, but it was because of Hubert's logical reasoning and lack of emotional attachment. In a way, Alfonse felt...safe, around him. There was less worry about growing emotionally attached and having to worry about Hubert leaving one day. Which of course Alfonse knew was inevitable; he was the servant of Princess Edelgard, of course he'd leave. Still, it made it easy for Alfonse to talk to him, and to befriend him.
But as time wore on, that excuse held less and less water. Alfonse and Hubert were both quite busy, but Alfonse sought Hubert out more often than he would most other heroes. It was so easy to talk to him, to confide, and even to fight alongside the man. There was no doubt in his mind that of all of the Heroes within the order, Hubert was clearly the closest to the Askran Prince. It wasn't as if it meant anything. They were simply friends, and just that. It didn't matter that Alfonse was so comfortable around him, and that he found himself thinking about Hubert more and more often as time wore on. That was just friendship, right? And nothing untoward. Absolutely nothing untoward.
At any rate, it would be a normal day like any other--but of course it isn't. The new year is coming in, and of course, the Order of Heroes is celebrating. Anna has already set up the celebration and Sharena has managed to convince him, and several other heroes to partake in the festivities, so naturally, Alfonse has been taking part. Sharena has stayed close to him today, and they've been having a lot of fun. But even so, someone hasn't arrived, and it's...causing something strange in Alfonse. He's tried to keep it from being obvious, but Sharena did pull him aside to ask what was on his mind...
And he almost feels like he's made a big mistake in telling her that he wished Hubert was here. Her grin is all too bright as she gives him what's essentially a pep-talk, and before he knows it, he's back in the castle and going right for the library.
("Oh, just go and ask him! The worst he can say is no, right?" Sharena winked shortly after saying that much. "But I imagine he won't say no if it's you asking!")
It doesn't matter what Hubert's answer is. Alfonse couldn't possibly impose such frivolity on his friend if he didn't want it. And yet, as he enters the library...well, he's about to do just that. He'll walk in, yukata-clad and all, and go find his friend--]
Ah, Hubert. [There he is. Alfonse keeps his voice calm, though there is a small smile on his face as he comes across the man.] Am I disturbing you?
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...It is. While I do not personally enjoy these festivities, they are valuable tools in building camaraderie and allowing everyone some time to relax after battle.
[They're beneficial and there's no harm in enjoying them, in other words.]
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I agree with you entirely. And it really is worth it to see the people have a good time.
[At any rate, though--Alfonse goes silent as he finishes, and he'll wait for Hubert to finish up his meal as well. There's still a few things that Alfonse wants to do, but it is starting to get pretty late...
Once they're both finished, Alfonse looks over to Hubert again.]
Is there anything in particular you would like to do next?
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Well, it really is a shame he won't be able to see it. But thoughts like that certainly aren't helpful right now.]
Nothing in particular, no. Feel free to lead the way.
[...Wasn't he going to leave at some point...?? Ehh, he can stick around a little longer. There's no rush to get back to the library.]
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[Alfonse grins a little bit, but come on then. The path to the shrine is actually pretty clear; a small stone path leads to the shrine in question, and it's not as decorated through here. It's dark, and there's a certain stillness in the night air that's almost soothing to Alfonse. Especially with a lack of anyone else here but the two of them.
It seems everyone must have gotten their prayers all taken care of already. Well, everyone except Alfonse, and more than anything he's kind of glad for the peace and quiet.]
I would have figured that there might be more people here...but perhaps this truly is for the best. It can be quite hard to make a wish with too many people here.
[Alfonse will turn to Hubert, though, mostly just to see how he's faring. It wasn't a long walk or anything, but if Hubert minds, Alfonse will take care of it quickly.]
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It's quiet here, away from the hustle and bustle the rest of the festival has been and it's almost soothing, in a way. It's just the two of them out here, and honestly, Hubert's glad.]
I imagine it would be rather distracting, yes.
[So... how exactly are we doing this...]
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[Thankfully, their shrine is just a small one, and there's space enough for the both of them. Alfonse did watch Sharena do this earlier, after all; at the time, he hadn't a wish to think of, but now...
Well, he'll kneel before the shrine, calmly just closing his eyes and praying. It's simple, really, and yet...it takes Alfonse a bit to come up with something. There are a great many things he could wish for, after all. Peace, for one. That'd be appreciated by everyone here. Prosperity, good fortune, happiness for the people...
And yet, Alfonse settles on something more simple, and...perhaps a touch more selfish. He simply wishes for the confidence to speak to his friend honestly. It's...a simple thing, really, and yet being here--and having Hubert here alongside him has only proven that there's something gripping his chest that he can't ignore anymore, can he? It's risky, but...
Maybe he'll get the chance. Eventually. Surely not tonight, but maybe--
No, he's been sitting here for far too long, hasn't he? Alfonse startles himself out of his own prayer, having taken a little too long and he looks to Hubert, sheepish.]
Ah, my apologies. I...may have gotten a little carried away in thinking of something to wish for...
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Obviously there's no point in asking for anything he truly wants. Even if it were to come true, it needs to happen by his own power. Lady Edelgard's dreams and ideals are his as well, but it would be silly to wish for everything to go well for them here and now. Besides, praying to a deity for help overthrowing a different deity seems pointless. Funny, but pointless.
So something smaller, then. Something that is important here in Askr, perhaps. What precisely would he want here...
...Well, maybe he can hope for just a little longer in this world. It won't hurt if he and Lady Edelgard remain here for a little while.
Alfonse starts beside him and Hubert glances over.]
I had some difficulties with it as well; you don't need to worry. If you're done, should we head out?
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[Alfonse will get up, then, and offer Hubert a hand up. It's the least he can do for his friend, even if Alfonse's gaze averts shortly after. He's at least thankful that Hubert had as much trouble as he did, but even so, this is improper, and he should just get this out of his mind--
But at the very least, Alfonse starts to speaks up as they walk.]
...I really do want to thank you for coming down here today. I really do appreciate you taking time out of your day to do so.
[Alfonse is at least thankful he's walking on ahead so Hubert doesn't have to see his face. He's only a little distracted, it's fine.]
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You don't have to thank me for that.
[Honestly, he expected to spend a bit of time out here and then return to the library, but... well, Alfonse has spent the entire time with him... Shouldn't he be spending time with his sister and the others?]
I didn't expect to enjoy it, but this has been... a pleasant experience so far.
[If he'd been dragged into half the things going on it wouldn't have been, but Alfonse is far more chill than the majority of the people here and he never tries to push Hubert into doing anything. It really is nice.]
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I am glad to hear that much. I was hoping that it might; I did at least want to ensure that you were able to enjoy your time here.
[But that's not...hm...]
...I was having a good enough time with the festival, don't get me wrong. But...being able to share that much with you has really made it better for me. If that makes sense.
[Don't lose your nerve now, Alfonse, just...be honest and hope it's not awkward. It's Fine.]
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[It's not exactly light, but it is mostly a joke. Alfonse obviously isn't checking up on everyone, but it still wasn't necessary for him to come seek Hubert out like that. Not that he's complaining, but it's... making him feel some kind of way. Exactly what kind of way is likely best left untouched, but surely it's fine!!]
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I know I don't have to, but I like being able to do so. Isn't that enough? Besides, I find it very worth it to see a friend's happy face, you know.
[This is fine, honestly. It's perfectly fine, and it's not like seeing Hubert this happy has made him feel all fluttery and shit. Alfonse is just fine, everything's fine!!]
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Well, I suppose I'm pleased you've been enjoying yourself.
[even if he's a little embarrassed now, gosh!!!]
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I'm...quite glad to hear that, Hubert. It really does mean a lot to hear that from you.
[doki, doki]
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Yes, well. Where exactly are we headed now?
[j-just ignore that he's a little more pink than normal it's fine.]
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Ah, well, I believe that next we should--
[A sound in the distance manages to startle Alfonse--it's the sound of what seems like a large bell tolling in the distance, and Alfonse's eyes go wide.]
The bell--the new year must be coming upon us soon, then! We should get--gah!
[Well, in Alfonse's panic about the last part of the celebration (and...staring at Hubert's face too much...), he takes a backwards step--and it proves to be a bad idea because Alfonse promptly loses his footing and starts falling backwards with a yelp. F in the chat...]
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Well, okay, Hubert isn't exactly going to just watch Alfonse fall; his reflexes are quick and while he's not precisely strong, he can at least hopefully stop Alfonse from falling over by reaching out to grab him and steady him.]
Are you alright?
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Ah--yes, yes. [Alfonse uses his free hand to rub the back of his head.] My apologies, I simply didn't realize how late it was. The tolling of the bell usually signifies the ending celebration of the festival, and I...hadn't realized just how much time had passed...
[...]
Would you like to watch it with me? There might be a large crowd, but I do know somewhere where we might be able to watch the finale without dealing with them, if you're so inclined.
[It's basically fireworks and a lot of hooting and hollering and shit. But it is fun to at least watch as they count down with the bell???
...Please note that Alfonse has not let go of Hubert yet, he's a little too distracted. Is it by losing track of time or how gallant Hubert was just now??? You decide!!!]
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That isn't the thing Hubert should be focusing on, especially since Alfonse is speaking, but the majority of what he's hearing right now is his own pulse spiking and that really shouldn't be happening right now. He can focus on all of this later, but for now he should... Well, he should start by letting go. It still takes him a moment to actually do that, but thankfully he isn't jumping back like Alfonse is on fire or anything.]
Ah, yes, of course.
[What did Alfonse say, exactly?? Something about the end of the festivities or something? That seems like a safe answer anyway, let's... go??? Ohhhh man he really was not prepared for this turn, was he.]
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Just. Get through the end of the festival. Get through the end of it, they can do this and never speak of this again, hopefully.]
Let us be on our way then. Follow my lead.
[It's thankfully not a far walk to the place Alfonse knows of--it's a hill that overlooks the entire celebration where everyone seems to have gathered, some even in...twos...oh gods, why are there so many couples, just focus on the celebration--]
I...I do hope this area will suffice. I can imagine you might find the crowd below a little more than suffocating.
[Alfonse just...kind of fidgets with his sleeves while he watches everyone below, gaze averted from Hubert.]
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So Hubert follows, and once they're looking out at everyone else, uh... Oh. Well then. Hubert wasn't aware some of these people were even interested in each other to begin with, which just goes to show he needs to pay more attention. Not that he cares who is dating whom, but being out of the loop with any information is a bit aggravating. It's absolutely not something to focus on that isn't Alfonse or the fact that Alfonse took him here, where there are plenty of other couples.]
I would, yes. This spot will be just fine.
[A bit distracting, maybe, but they're high enough up that they can't accidentally eavesdrop on anyone, so it should be fine.
...Awkward, but fine.]
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Even now, Alfonse just finds himself fidgeting in the extended silence. Alfonse doesn't even bother to speak up, but he's suddenly so antsy. All at once it feels like his skin is on fire and there's no way to quench the flames, and his nerves have already started taking over. There's so much he wants to do and stuff he wants to say, but all at once it feels like too much, and--]
...Hubert?
[Alfonse's voice feels so very small. It's only something to break the silence so the air doesn't feel so tense.]
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The question is: does he want a resolution to it?
Logically speaking, no. He doesn't want any sort of resolution to it. It's best just to forget tonight ever happened. This world is not his own, but that doesn't mean he can simply forget his duties and desires and everything that he holds so dear back home. Ignoring all of that would be downright foolish. It doesn't matter what he wants here.
But even Hubert von Vestra isn't solely dictated by logic, and the overwhelming majority of him wants something to happen, even if it's simply for this festival to be over so he can escape and go back to ignoring whatever revelations he may or may not have had tonight.
Then Alfonse speaks, and Hubert finds himself drawn like a moth to flame, despite knowing that he'll likely be burned.]
What is it?
[Alfonse's voice is quiet; nervous, maybe. He's not used to the prince sounding so uncertain. It's not really helping with his own nerves, but of course he'll hear Alfonse out.]
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Alfonse steels himself and takes a step closer to his friend.]
I...truly hate to trouble you. You know this better than anyone. But I... [...] Could I ask you to...trust me, for a moment?
[Alfonse's heart is beating so fast that it's a wonder he's not fainting. It's absolutely impulse guiding him at this point. But Hubert could tell him to leave, to give him the reality check he sorely needs, and Alfonse would back away.
But even now, Alfonse stares at Hubert outright, and his expression has a strange determination in it.]
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But that... isn't the case with Alfonse. It hasn't been the case with Alfonse for quite some time. When exactly did he start letting his guard down? It's pointless to think about something like that now, but it certainly does confirm that his next words are true.]
I've trusted you for far longer than that, and I doubt that will change now.
[It's stupid to make assumptions about what Alfonse will do next, and yet... given their proximity, Hubert hopes his assumption is correct.]
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