[The silence is deafening and all too damning. Marianne briefly wonders if she said too much--if she's screwed up, if she's really just as cursed as she thought and ruined everything. It's always been a lingering thought in Marianne's mind, that this could all fall apart in an instant, and yet...
Marianne was so naive to think that her accursed presence would bring anything but trouble. She startles when he pulls back slowly, and she wonders briefly if he'll say something. He just...stares at her openly, and then he pulls back entirely and bows before her and speaks and...
Marianne swears that her heart just shattered. She can see that pained look on his face all too briefly, before he leaves her behind and she...
Well, it takes a few seconds. It takes a few seconds for the reality of the situation to hit before she finds a nice little corner at the top of the tower and cries. She's so stupid. She was such an idiot to say anything, to try to stand up for what she felt was wrongful, hateful thoughts on Hubert's end and the more she thinks about it, the more she recedes back into that old mindset of hers. She's cursed. Cursed. This only proves it, that Marianne should have been happy with her lot in life and that she should have accepted it, because it was all she deserved.
Maybe this is what the Goddess was trying to show her, and this is how She decided to answer Marianne's prayers. By reminding her of her place in this land, of her accursed presence, of the fact that she truly can bring only misfortune to the people around her. That even trying to express herself was a mistake, and she should have never said anything at all. She shouldn't have followed her heart, as her crest would only ensure it lead to misery.
Dorothea and Hilda wind up finding her later, red-eyed and curled up in a corner, and the both of them try to talk to her--to ask what happened, to see if they can help--and Marianne shoves them away and runs. She runs all the way back to her room and proceeds to lock the door tightly, intending to shut out not only them, but everyone else.
It's fine. It's surely fine. If Bernadetta can spend so much time alone in her room, then so can Marianne. Maybe this way Hubert will actually be able to find happiness without her poor luck dragging him down.
That's simply the way of the world, and it's something Marianne should have simply accepted.]
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Marianne was so naive to think that her accursed presence would bring anything but trouble. She startles when he pulls back slowly, and she wonders briefly if he'll say something. He just...stares at her openly, and then he pulls back entirely and bows before her and speaks and...
Marianne swears that her heart just shattered. She can see that pained look on his face all too briefly, before he leaves her behind and she...
Well, it takes a few seconds. It takes a few seconds for the reality of the situation to hit before she finds a nice little corner at the top of the tower and cries. She's so stupid. She was such an idiot to say anything, to try to stand up for what she felt was wrongful, hateful thoughts on Hubert's end and the more she thinks about it, the more she recedes back into that old mindset of hers. She's cursed. Cursed. This only proves it, that Marianne should have been happy with her lot in life and that she should have accepted it, because it was all she deserved.
Maybe this is what the Goddess was trying to show her, and this is how She decided to answer Marianne's prayers. By reminding her of her place in this land, of her accursed presence, of the fact that she truly can bring only misfortune to the people around her. That even trying to express herself was a mistake, and she should have never said anything at all. She shouldn't have followed her heart, as her crest would only ensure it lead to misery.
Dorothea and Hilda wind up finding her later, red-eyed and curled up in a corner, and the both of them try to talk to her--to ask what happened, to see if they can help--and Marianne shoves them away and runs. She runs all the way back to her room and proceeds to lock the door tightly, intending to shut out not only them, but everyone else.
It's fine. It's surely fine. If Bernadetta can spend so much time alone in her room, then so can Marianne. Maybe this way Hubert will actually be able to find happiness without her poor luck dragging him down.
That's simply the way of the world, and it's something Marianne should have simply accepted.]