[Sonic really can't help but think that he's overthinking all of this; he knows that, honestly, and he finds his gaze averting again as Neo reminds him of that. He's getting stuck in his own head, but it's hard not to be, when he can't feel, he can't taste, he can't do much of anything except thing or fight and--
Is this what Neo faces on a daily basis? Because Sonic can firmly say that he hates it.]
...It's hard. I know you won't let anything happen, and I believe in you. I really do. But I think that's just...part of it, maybe.
[But that really isn't the root of the problem, even if it's part of it.]
I guess, more than anything, it's just...how do you distract yourself so you aren't in your own head all the time? [Sonic actually looks at Neo at that, and he can't quite convey the urgency or the distress in his expression, but--] I've been trying to do that all day, to just...get out of my head, to distract myself with something, but I feel drawn back in every time. I don't know how to handle any of this in the ways I'm used to. And I know you don't really make yourself sleep or anything, and I just...
...I've never known how to sit still, and I've always run from anything more complicated, thoughts-wise. I'm the kind of guy who just puts things out of his head and hopes for the best, I don't...think hard about stuff or get lost in my head.
[A part of him wants to ask if that's something he can delete. If there's something he can do to just...force it to stop for a bit so he doesn't have to think, so he doesn't have to get overwhelmed with information, maybe he can just delete these overbearing thoughts, but--
He really doesn't want to hurt Neo in the process, and Sonic's grip on Neo's hand is tight.
Please don't leave. You can do whatever you want, whatever you wanna say I'll hear, but please don't leave.]
...Sorry, Neo. I know it's not easy. I'm...not sure if there is a way to make it easier. But...you being here, it is helping. Don't think for a second that it isn't.
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Is this what Neo faces on a daily basis? Because Sonic can firmly say that he hates it.]
...It's hard. I know you won't let anything happen, and I believe in you. I really do. But I think that's just...part of it, maybe.
[But that really isn't the root of the problem, even if it's part of it.]
I guess, more than anything, it's just...how do you distract yourself so you aren't in your own head all the time? [Sonic actually looks at Neo at that, and he can't quite convey the urgency or the distress in his expression, but--] I've been trying to do that all day, to just...get out of my head, to distract myself with something, but I feel drawn back in every time. I don't know how to handle any of this in the ways I'm used to. And I know you don't really make yourself sleep or anything, and I just...
...I've never known how to sit still, and I've always run from anything more complicated, thoughts-wise. I'm the kind of guy who just puts things out of his head and hopes for the best, I don't...think hard about stuff or get lost in my head.
[A part of him wants to ask if that's something he can delete. If there's something he can do to just...force it to stop for a bit so he doesn't have to think, so he doesn't have to get overwhelmed with information, maybe he can just delete these overbearing thoughts, but--
He really doesn't want to hurt Neo in the process, and Sonic's grip on Neo's hand is tight.
Please don't leave. You can do whatever you want, whatever you wanna say I'll hear, but please don't leave.]
...Sorry, Neo. I know it's not easy. I'm...not sure if there is a way to make it easier. But...you being here, it is helping. Don't think for a second that it isn't.