[Sonic feels that uncertainty, in all of this. It's...strange, but Sonic isn't surprised in the slightest; how long has Neo simply existed on drive alone? Existed only to follow orders, existed only to kill him, existed with the constant looming threat of being scrapped by Eggman if he did not succeed. This is the first time Neo's really existed for himself, too, and this is...
It's not fair, to put him through this. It almost makes Sonic want to leave, to put this under the rug and not think about it, but that's only hurt them both so many times. They can't keep doing this, and Sonic's determination builds slowly, as if gently knocking on the door to Neo's heart. The one he'd so fervently deny that he has.
I know. I get it, and I feel the same way. And I'm sorry for putting this mess on you. It's not fair to you. But isn't ignoring this just going to hurt us both?
Sonic pauses a bit, the shaking not abating, but the hand in the snow ceases it's movements. The other hand, the one closer to Neo, tentatively moves, and...
You're wrong. You can do anything you set that big brain of yours to, Neo. We've both seen it time and time again, haven't we? There's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with going against how you were made, and making something new of yourself.
...He moves to try and take one of Neo's hands in his own, shakily, but with a firm resolve if allowed.
...I don't know if the stuff going on inside my head really is what they're all calling...that. I still don't know if I get it. What we are, what any of this is. But I think, in an ideal world...
Even in thinking, he can't bring himself to use that dreaded four letter word.
Sonic's thoughts drift to an ideal world. A world where he has a partner who can test his worth and prove a challenge to him. They can race throughout the world, finding new places to go, to enjoy, to just be themselves in. They can take on anything that comes their way, and they can enjoy life for all it is. They can compete with each other, fight each other, and still come out of it happy. They could even go their own ways for a time if they want that, to experience the world on their own terms, to make their own stories.
And at the end of it all, they could come back to see each other and share the stories they've created. Right back into each other's arms and embrace, the only real home they'd ever need.
...It's a cute fantasy. Sonic knows it can't be a reality, but somehow, his heart aches for it as that thought ends up transferred through their bond.
I can't think of anyone else I'd want to share this with.
...
You're the greatest rival I've ever had, Neo, and I've got no intention of changing things between us. But...thanks. For hearing me overthink, at least. Means a lot.
Sonic isn't going to force this. How could he, when Neo has barely had time to make his own life outside of all he's known? There's so much in this beautiful world and many others for Neo to see, he's sure of it. Neo deserves to see it.
There's an old phrase that Sonic's heard at least once in his life, from the place he used to come from, and it rings true even now.
"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you...it is yours."
If he really does love Neo...he's willing to let him go.]
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It's not fair, to put him through this. It almost makes Sonic want to leave, to put this under the rug and not think about it, but that's only hurt them both so many times. They can't keep doing this, and Sonic's determination builds slowly, as if gently knocking on the door to Neo's heart. The one he'd so fervently deny that he has.
I know. I get it, and I feel the same way.
And I'm sorry for putting this mess on you.
It's not fair to you.
But isn't ignoring this just going to hurt us both?
Sonic pauses a bit, the shaking not abating, but the hand in the snow ceases it's movements. The other hand, the one closer to Neo, tentatively moves, and...
You're wrong.
You can do anything you set that big brain of yours to, Neo. We've both seen it time and time again, haven't we?
There's nothing wrong with you.
There's nothing wrong with going against how you were made, and making something new of yourself.
...He moves to try and take one of Neo's hands in his own, shakily, but with a firm resolve if allowed.
...I don't know if the stuff going on inside my head really is what they're all calling...that.
I still don't know if I get it.
What we are, what any of this is.
But I think, in an ideal world...
Even in thinking, he can't bring himself to use that dreaded four letter word.
Sonic's thoughts drift to an ideal world. A world where he has a partner who can test his worth and prove a challenge to him. They can race throughout the world, finding new places to go, to enjoy, to just be themselves in. They can take on anything that comes their way, and they can enjoy life for all it is. They can compete with each other, fight each other, and still come out of it happy. They could even go their own ways for a time if they want that, to experience the world on their own terms, to make their own stories.
And at the end of it all, they could come back to see each other and share the stories they've created. Right back into each other's arms and embrace, the only real home they'd ever need.
...It's a cute fantasy. Sonic knows it can't be a reality, but somehow, his heart aches for it as that thought ends up transferred through their bond.
I can't think of anyone else I'd want to share this with.
...
You're the greatest rival I've ever had, Neo, and I've got no intention of changing things between us.
But...thanks.
For hearing me overthink, at least.
Means a lot.
Sonic isn't going to force this. How could he, when Neo has barely had time to make his own life outside of all he's known? There's so much in this beautiful world and many others for Neo to see, he's sure of it. Neo deserves to see it.
There's an old phrase that Sonic's heard at least once in his life, from the place he used to come from, and it rings true even now.
"If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back to you...it is yours."
If he really does love Neo...he's willing to let him go.]